To be fair, I’ve stopped and started this blog more times than I’d like to admit (or count!) over the last 3+ years. And, lately, I’ve just thought about shutting the whole thing down. If I’m not doing something wholeheartedly, why do it at all?
So, I started to reflect back on why I started the blog in the first place. I couldn’t come up with a great answer. At the time, it just seemed like something to do for myself. I had really gotten into cooking; which as it turned out, I was good at and really loved doing. And also post my first marathon and half marathon and after taking quite a bit of time off, I had begun training again for the Bermuda half. I had also started to use Instagram and really utilizing social media to post pictures of food. I pretty much had zero followers but I did like the creativity of it. Then, I started to participate in Crossfit and started reading a lot of health and living blogs. And, that was it. I thought, well, maybe I should start a blog.
I guess I never really thought about it being hard. I thought words would just flow. I would find new and interesting things to do every day and write about them. All of a sudden, I would be a blog sensation with people clamoring to hear what I had to say next. I was pretty wrong about that. It was hard to find time to write, find topics to write about, find new and interesting things to do especially when working full time. It’s hard to get followers and to maintain your presence in the health and living community and in the social media world. I’ve struggled with ideas, with consistency, with follow through. It’s like the blog became synonymous of all the areas I struggled with in my day to day life. And, it also became synonymous of my fitness struggles over the years as well.
With that being said, what do I want out of this blog? I guess I want the same thing I want out of life. I want to be consistent. I want to share some of the ideas that I have. Most importantly, I want to get in the best shape of my life. I don’t want to think about my life as now is the time (or only time!) to do this. But, why not now? Why isn’t this the time? Over the last 3+ years, things have changed. I’ve moved a few times. I obtained a Master’s degree. I changed jobs. I’ve lost friends but I’ve gained others. I cook more (and it’s all pretty delicious). I’ve lost weight and I’ve gained weight. I found out I have a rare form of colitis. I’ve been happy and sad but have tried not to be angry. Overall, I’m happy and grateful for all the wonderful blessings in my life.
And so, I’ll persevere and continue the blog for whomever might stumble across it. But, if for nothing else, it will serve as a marker that from today and every day after, I’ll push to achieve my goals, to design a healthy and achievable lifestyle. But, more importantly, I’ll find a reason to laugh, do something fun, move my body, and be happy.